After the love has gone

"Only fools carry on..." 

My birthday and also the month of love. Coincidentally, it was a long weekend for my bro-in-law, so we went down south for vacation.

Made an appointment to meet up and watch movie together before I flew back to the north. He came days earlier. Came to give me my birthday gift. No movie as planned. Left after an hour. It was cold. Didn't bother to look at me. Well...

Yes, I am a fool.

ใจหนึ่งก็รัก อีกใจหนึ่งก็เจ็บ
เจ็บที่ยังรักเธอข้างเดียวอยู่ร่ำไป 
ใจหนึ่งก็คิดจะเดินไปให้ไกล 
แต่อีกใจยังไม่กล้าพอ 
เพราะรู้ว่ายังขาดเธอไม่ได้

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On a positive note, thank you for the gift and time, especially the time. Love you much.

Day 22

Be with the person that you love.

And he loves you too.

ตบมือข้างเดียวมันดังไม่ได้หรอก

Life can do terrible things

So, he called. But not talking.

I texted him. He replied. Asking how was I. I gave him the standard answer.

"I'm fine, thank you. How r u?"

When all I wanted to say was, "No, I'm not. This is so hard. It's killing me. I'm willing to wait because I love you, because I want this to work. I have to wait... It's like a criminal waiting to hear the verdict. The crime for loving you to much. For caring too much, it's deemed as annoying, suffocating you." "When what we should do is to talk about it, to discuss, to communicate, to share. Instead of saying you are tired and not in the mood to talk and leaving a half ticking bomb at the end of the conversations every freaking time."

So, how r u? You replied "I am great!" With an exclamation mark.

Well, great.

"So don't fall in love, there's just too much to lose
If you're given the choice, then I beg you to choose
To walk away, walk away, don't let her get you.
I can't bear to see the same happen to you.

Now, son, I'm only telling you this
Because life can do terrible things"

Mayday Parade

Here Without You

It has been 10 days. It's not so fine on the weekdays, it's worse on the weekends. Knowing that you'd be on your wheels, not knowing whether you are safe. Be careful, love.

A person who needs you…

Will do anything to keep you. This is the type of person who is always interested to hear what you have to say. This person wants to know about your day, to know what you did, what you ate, whom you interacted with.

This person wants to know every little bit about you because he or she is still trying to figure out why it is that he or she needs you so much.

This person knows he or she couldn't bear living without you, but this person can’t exactly pinpoint the reason why.

This person is in love with you because this person is in love with you, and although that’s enough of an explanation, this person still wants to figure you out.

Credit

Days without you

Not contacting you means not knowing whether you are home safely. Lots of worries and bad feelings. Guess that is how you feel when you truly love someone.

Hope you are doing fine over there. I miss you. Badly. :(

Have a break, Have a Kit-kat

แค่4วันยังรู้สึกเหมือนจะขาดใจตาย เเล้วท่าไม่มีเขาจรีงๆ เราจะอยู่ต่อไปยังไง... รักเขามาก ให้จนหมดหัวใจ จะดึงกลับมาก็ไม่ทันแล้ว ได้แต่หวังว่าเราจะกลับมาเป็นเหมือนเดิมอีกครั้งน่ะ