Day 22

Be with the person that you love.

And he loves you too.

ตบมือข้างเดียวมันดังไม่ได้หรอก

Life can do terrible things

So, he called. But not talking.

I texted him. He replied. Asking how was I. I gave him the standard answer.

"I'm fine, thank you. How r u?"

When all I wanted to say was, "No, I'm not. This is so hard. It's killing me. I'm willing to wait because I love you, because I want this to work. I have to wait... It's like a criminal waiting to hear the verdict. The crime for loving you to much. For caring too much, it's deemed as annoying, suffocating you." "When what we should do is to talk about it, to discuss, to communicate, to share. Instead of saying you are tired and not in the mood to talk and leaving a half ticking bomb at the end of the conversations every freaking time."

So, how r u? You replied "I am great!" With an exclamation mark.

Well, great.

"So don't fall in love, there's just too much to lose
If you're given the choice, then I beg you to choose
To walk away, walk away, don't let her get you.
I can't bear to see the same happen to you.

Now, son, I'm only telling you this
Because life can do terrible things"

Mayday Parade

Here Without You

It has been 10 days. It's not so fine on the weekdays, it's worse on the weekends. Knowing that you'd be on your wheels, not knowing whether you are safe. Be careful, love.

A person who needs you…

Will do anything to keep you. This is the type of person who is always interested to hear what you have to say. This person wants to know about your day, to know what you did, what you ate, whom you interacted with.

This person wants to know every little bit about you because he or she is still trying to figure out why it is that he or she needs you so much.

This person knows he or she couldn't bear living without you, but this person can’t exactly pinpoint the reason why.

This person is in love with you because this person is in love with you, and although that’s enough of an explanation, this person still wants to figure you out.

Credit

Days without you

Not contacting you means not knowing whether you are home safely. Lots of worries and bad feelings. Guess that is how you feel when you truly love someone.

Hope you are doing fine over there. I miss you. Badly. :(

Have a break, Have a Kit-kat

แค่4วันยังรู้สึกเหมือนจะขาดใจตาย เเล้วท่าไม่มีเขาจรีงๆ เราจะอยู่ต่อไปยังไง... รักเขามาก ให้จนหมดหัวใจ จะดึงกลับมาก็ไม่ทันแล้ว ได้แต่หวังว่าเราจะกลับมาเป็นเหมือนเดิมอีกครั้งน่ะ

Same Old Year

It has been 2 years since I last updated my blog. Quick update:

2012 year end tragedy
- Nov 2012 - Dad collapsed and admitted in ICU Kuala Terengganu. Dirty hospital. Very dirty.

Abah visiting Dad for the last time.

- Dec 2012 - Started teaching in a new school, my first international school in Bayan Lepas.
- Dec 2012 - Failed my first viva. Horribly. Terribly. *Brought shame to myself and my family. Should be hung to death.*
- Dec 2012 - Found out Dad's new secret. *Should not be feeling anything anymore, but it still broke my heart knowing it.*
- Dec 2012 - Dad's condition was getting better and the saying of "the last good day" proven to be true. Dad passed away after the last good day.
- Dec 2012 - Grand send-off crossing Terengganu, Kelantan and finally reaching Kedah by PDRM from all the states mentioned. A well-deserved funeral for him by the family and the government. Special thanks to KP Terengganu and KPD KT for the recognition.

With KP Terengganu and KPD KT

Entourage from IPD KT

"Family Potrait"

Till death do us part

The divorce process (Yes, they have that ceremony in Thai funeral. Something new to me.)

- Dec 2012 - Back to KT to pack Dad's stuff and attend appreciation luncheon by IPD KT. Flood everywhere, was caught in the flood and had to turn back and stay in KT for another night. Home after evading the flood, on our last ride on the police car. No more special privileges. No more anak polis special treatment. Have to be a good citizen now.

Picking stuff from the office

The annual flood

2013 worth mentioning stuff in the toilet stall

Drawn using the jot given by him

- Trying out for the second time to complete my dissertation. Paid RM2k for that.
- Work was not easy. A lot of paper works that I was certain nobody read and took a look at, and mostly probably used for wiping ass for those people who like to kiss ass and jilat kasut.
- Got "promoted" with added responsibilities. Nobody liked to be promoted here, maybe it was just me.
- Busy working no time for dissertation. Bad time management. Screwed. Did not attend my second viva. Failed again. Doomed.
- Got myself a bf. I guessed so. I love him very much.
- Traveled to Cambodia. Nice place. Nice culture. Only Siem Reap, did not manage to go to the killing field in Phnom Penh, 7 hours away. Too bad. First time traveled with MAS. The plane was going round and round for few rounds before landed safely. Got a big room for myself in Angkor Hotel, thanks to the teacher who organised the trip.

Somewhere in Siem Reap

2014 bad year for Malaysia
- Lost the plane MH370, plane shot down MH17. RIP
- Finally finished my contract with the school. Got myself another international school. Awesome place, shitty pay, left after 3 months.

Bad influence

One of my most successful project; Breaking the school rules.

- A lot of weddings this year, friends and my sis' wedding.
- KL family could not attend sis' wedding as abah was hospitalised again.
- Abah passed away few days after sis' wedding.
- No much memorable thing for 2014, except for the LDR. Kinda rocky, with his Demi Lovato featuring Cher Lloyd attitude. Sometimes he does, sometimes he doesn't. Brought another girl for a trip, maybe trips. Thanks, Dad.
- Another plane crashed. A tragic year.



2015
Don't think anything will be any better. Meh!~










 Glad that you were my students.

Appreciate.

Love.