The Waiting Game

Probably around this day a year ago that I called and told you that I would be back to Alor Star in 2 months time. Told you to wait for me. Silly me. Who would want to wait for me? You did, you waited. But not long enough. You should have waited for my arrival on early October, not in the middle of August! Silly me. Who would want to wait for me till the month of Oct. Probably Paul the Oct would, but not you.

I'm sorry I played the waiting game with you.

I should have returned home when mom told me you fell. I never knew it would be the thing that took you away from me. I thought you were strong. You never fell ill, you were always healthy. But you were 82. Silly me.

I read "Twenties Girl" by Sophie Kinsella and I cried. Because I related that story to you. Sadie was like you, always was in her twenties. Full of life. Never needed anyone help. Because you were a strong woman. A woman in her twenties who was strong and confident. Unlike me, 24 and weak. Silly me.

Here's a song to my dearest maemae and my friends, Ng Poh Ngoh and Tan Woan Yin.



"Would you know my name
If I saw you in heaven
Will it be the same
If I saw you in heaven"

"Would you hold my hand
If I saw you in heaven
Would you help me stand
If I saw you in heaven"

"Beyond the door, there's peace I'm sure. And I know there'll be no more tears in heaven"
RIP.

Angels Cry

We said our last goodbye almost 10 months ago, but I still pretend that you are here by my side all the time. I imagine that you were outside my room trying to wake this big pig up at 11am on every weekends and holidays; imagine that you were watching lakorn with me every night. Fighting for remote control like we always did. Arguing just for fun. Teasing each other the way how we show our loves.

It rained cats and dogs today. It is still raining now while I’m typing this. You had always like rainy days. But you were afraid of thunder and lightning. How are you doing up there? Miss you always. Can’t wait to see you again.

P/S: I hate using Past Tense to describe you. You will always be alive in my heart.



Well it's hard to explain but I'll try if you let me
Well its hard to sustain
I'll cry if you let me
This doesn't change the way I feel about you or your place in my life
(please don't cry)
Can't you see I'm dying here?
A shot of broken heart that is chased with fear

Angels cry when stars collide
And I can't eat and I can't breathe
I wouldn't want it any other way

Intentions that were pure have turned obscure
Seconds into hours
Minutes into years
Don't ask me why
(please don't cry)
I cant tell you lies

Angels cry when stars collide
And I can't eat and I can't breathe
I wouldn't want it any other way.
[repeat]

My heart burns through
My chest to the floor
Tearing me silently although abruptly
Words cant hide as I'm taking you home
And I tried to see
Tried to understand your words as I'm taking you home

Angels cry when stars collide
And I can't eat and I can't breathe
I wouldn't want it any other way

[repeat]

Angels Cry - The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus

Miss You

by Westlife



I don't wanna feel
The way that I do
I just wanna be
Right here with you
I don't wanna see
See us apart
I just wanna say it straight from my heart
I miss you...

I really do. Very much.
Good night my dearest MaeMae.

Love Story

I had a movie date with LX the Evil Banana before she went back to MMU. The movie we watched is Valentine’s Day starring big names like Julia Roberts, Jennifer Garner, Mr Demi Moore, Princess Mia, Jessica Alba, Jacob the Wolf and dot dot dot.

Overall I think the movie is OK, watchable, and most importantly didn’t make me taking nap in the cinema during the whole 2 hours movie.

The part that impressed me the most in the movie is the story about Kate Hazeltine, played by Julia Roberts. In the beginning of the movie, I always thought that she was going back to be with her old and ailing parent, but for sure not to the husband or boyfriend. At the end of the movie, well if you watched the movie, she took the 14 hours flight to go home for a day just to be with her son, Edison, played by Bryce Robinson.

This reminds me of a clip I watched long time ago on Thai TV channel, so I went YouTube’ng hoping to find it.

And I found it!! Here it is.

Tell me if you didn’t have teary eyes watching this clip.

Anything that is related to family, parents-children bonds stuff always leave a very great impact in my heart.

Why can’t people just end the war and bring home those kids’ parents?

FUCK WARS.

FUCK POLITICS.

Ok, screw that.

There’s another thing in the movie that I like. It’s the Morley Clarkson part. This part is played by Jessica Alba. I am totally in her shoes about the marriage thing. In the movie, Morley rejected Reed Bennent’s (Mr Demi Moore) proposal. She said yes at first, but changed her mind after that.

With the increasing of divorce rate and the number of problem kids nowadays, I wonder why people still wants to get married, waste time, waste money in doing it, and have kids later on, and divorce and leave their kids to struggle emotionally? Human are just weird.

FUCK MARRIAGE.

FUCK “FAMILY”.

(FAMILY is Father And Mother I Love You);

Notice that the “Father” and “Mother” is in singular form.

That’s all. Love Story.

Oooh la la!~

It's here!~ But not Kindle. Ok, whatever. It's Hanlin eReader. Brought to you by MPH.

You can read the same thing --here--

Hanlin e-Reader and is an open source format ebook reader, and as such it allows you to read a huge range of digital content. It enables you to 'carry' almost as many books, magazines, and documents as you like (including RSS feed downloads). It is a robust yet elegant device which is slim, and as light as a single paperback book.

Hanlin eReader general features include:

• Wonderful paper-like display. Can even be read under the brightest sunlight!
• Powerful and long-lasting battery, one charge will last about 8000 page turns, will last for weeks.
• Fit your whole library into your e-Reader. The 512Mb internal memory and external SD card (max 4GB) can store a few thousand books!
• Use it anywhere – while travelling, at work or at home.
• User-friendly library menu interface. As easy as clicking 1, 2, 3.
• Supported file formats: PDF, MOBI, DOC, WOLF, MP3, HTML, TXT, CHM, FB2, Djvu, PNG, TIF, GIF, BMP, JPG, PPT, EPUB, LIT, PRC.
• 512MB internal memory, enough for at least 1,000 books!
• Use in multiple languages. Built-in menu language support: English, French, Spanish, German, Dutch, Chinese, Russian, Greek, Ukraine, Turkish, Japanese, Korean, Bulgarian, Estonian, Polish - more being added.
• Ability to change fonts while reading documents. Change to a bigger font size for easier reading. 3 font sizes.
• Easily add bookmarks to a page or book. Find when you left off and continue reading at ease.
• Files can be sorted by title, filename or size.
• Play MP3 files while reading if desired, and audiobooks. Battery charge will decrease at a faster rate when playing MP3 files.
• Eco-friendly: store and read thousands of e-books without cutting more trees

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Comparison between V3 and V5

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You can read about the product review --here--

It's not that pretty. The outer look is not very "yeng".
Will I buy? Nope. Will wait for better looking reader.
If people give me for free? Of course la! Anyone? :)

DROP DEAD

I hate waking up and going to work and do things that I don't like.

No, I'm not suicidal. I'm just disappointed.

Fuck it!

But I want to be with my grandma real bad!!

Gardenia Bread

I am eating Uncle Slocumm's Gardenia bread with Auntie Rosie's Pandan kaya now. So I did a bit googling bout Gardenia and found this:

Gardenia bread is delivered to stores 5 days a week, so how do we know which bread is fresh besides looking at the expiry date? Here's how. Gardenia bread has different colours to differentiate which one is on what day.

Monday - Blue
Tuesday - Green
Thursday - Red
Friday - White
Saturday - Yellow

* No Wednesday and Sunday.

So, lets say, tomorrow is Monday, since today is Sunday, so tomorrow should be Monday right? What am I mumbling about? Anyway, if you want to buy Gardenia bread tomorrow (Monday), make sure to take the Blue twist tie, not White or Yellow, because that would be Fri and Sat bread which is not as fresh as the Mon freshly baked bread.